I've been gone so long and honestly, it's hard to find the words. Ive been thiking of you throughut the years, but felt like I have lost the ability to talk.I was in a lot of fear for my safty and it broke my heart to be alone and isolated. I had to learn to live wih the fear and I think I am so much better at it now.
2 years ago I found again an old parfume. It's scent has thrown me back in time. It seems to smell different now, the memory of those long recording nights is attached to it, i can even smeell those oil lamps i used and it just feels safe. I used it all the time back then, each video I would come up with a new scent to describe. Whenever I wear it now it reminds me of the magical time as I had just started this channel. Life was simpler I had this beautiful connection to my audience and I felt so safe and welcome and full of dreams. Today I wear this parfume when I want to feel strong and when I miss connection. And it makes me feel so gratefull for all of you. It's the support I have had from you. Not something one could deserve but something that I've really needed in a hard time.
I wish so much to find a way to feel this connection and magic again. I thnk what I am trying to say, this post is my first attempt for reconnection. It's small yet, but I hope to find ways to find better words in future.
Pelagea ASMR
Pelagea ASMR
My dearest Community,
I've been gone so long and honestly, it's hard to find the words. Ive been thiking of you throughut the years, but felt like I have lost the ability to talk.I was in a lot of fear for my safty and it broke my heart to be alone and isolated. I had to learn to live wih the fear and I think I am so much better at it now.
2 years ago I found again an old parfume. It's scent has thrown me back in time. It seems to smell different now, the memory of those long recording nights is attached to it, i can even smeell those oil lamps i used and it just feels safe. I used it all the time back then, each video I would come up with a new scent to describe. Whenever I wear it now it reminds me of the magical time as I had just started this channel. Life was simpler I had this beautiful connection to my audience and I felt so safe and welcome and full of dreams. Today I wear this parfume when I want to feel strong and when I miss connection. And it makes me feel so gratefull for all of you. It's the support I have had from you. Not something one could deserve but something that I've really needed in a hard time.
I wish so much to find a way to feel this connection and magic again.
I thnk what I am trying to say, this post is my first attempt for reconnection. It's small yet, but I hope to find ways to find better words in future.
Your Pelagea.
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