my impact on my overthinking and my depression: whenever i make her sad: -i hope she didn’t suicide -i am such a horrible jerk -why tf do i exist? -when tf was i born just to make her sad? whenever i get on social media: -i should be ashamed of how they’re going through their lives whenever someone shouts at me: -why am i so useless? -i should be ashamed of this. i always hold my tears whenever someone shouts or judges at me since my family is full of judging and shits. my friends think im a whore, i cant find a mate, failed suicide 11 times. but i kept fake smiling since nobody notices me. back then, my life used to be fun, didn’t care anything, having fun. but nowadays. its all shit. youtube and OSC is fucked up, depression cones every night, everyone judges me. i would do nothing and wait for the motivation to come, like i wasted 55 hours for this shit. sometimes i see my friends having fun with someone and that i’m glad that they’re happy because that makes me hurt. i hope someone may be sitting on my grave in the future. i’m sorry.
thatpaintguy
my impact on my overthinking and my depression:
whenever i make her sad:
-i hope she didn’t suicide
-i am such a horrible jerk
-why tf do i exist?
-when tf was i born just to make her sad?
whenever i get on social media:
-i should be ashamed of how they’re going through their lives
whenever someone shouts at me:
-why am i so useless?
-i should be ashamed of this.
i always hold my tears whenever someone shouts or judges at me since my family is full of judging and shits. my friends think im a whore, i cant find a mate, failed suicide 11 times. but i kept fake smiling since nobody notices me. back then, my life used to be fun, didn’t care anything, having fun. but nowadays. its all shit. youtube and OSC is fucked up, depression cones every night, everyone judges me. i would do nothing and wait for the motivation to come, like i wasted 55 hours for this shit. sometimes i see my friends having fun with someone and that i’m glad that they’re happy because that makes me hurt. i hope someone may be sitting on my grave in the future. i’m sorry.
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