I mentioned on twitter I'm trying some new meds. They were initially good, then things got really rough. A lot of confusing and varied thoughts and emotions. My psych suggested I increased the dose so I've just done that today, 15mg escitalopram now up from 10mg.
I'm trying to let myself get my hopes up, maybe part of my depression has been denying myself anticipation of happiness (I used to stop myself if i noticed I was getting excited about something "prematurely"), but that hope came effortlessly in the first month of the 10mg meds. Now that's faded, it takes energy I don't have much of.
I slept through two therapy appointments. Sleeping pattern has been fucked the past month. This week I didn't sleep through it. I click with my therapist, which apparently is one of the best scientific identifiers of a therapist being effective according to her.
It's hard to know whether it's helping atm, since I assume everyone is feeling brutally lonely rn. Maybe there's just no way for most people to be mentally healthy in a pandemic.
I am really going against my instinct to post this. Right now I'm really closed off, not talking to almost anyone for a while. I don't feel like I have the energy for it. It feels weird talking about this hopefully and publicly without being "fixed". I just know reading things like this on reddit etc. that are so blunt about mental health experiences encouraged me to actually try therapy/meds in the first place + helped with persisting for longer. Statistically, they are worth trying properly.
so what i'm really saying is should i take the meds all in one day to speed up the effect?
Boyinaband
I mentioned on twitter I'm trying some new meds. They were initially good, then things got really rough. A lot of confusing and varied thoughts and emotions. My psych suggested I increased the dose so I've just done that today, 15mg escitalopram now up from 10mg.
I'm trying to let myself get my hopes up, maybe part of my depression has been denying myself anticipation of happiness (I used to stop myself if i noticed I was getting excited about something "prematurely"), but that hope came effortlessly in the first month of the 10mg meds. Now that's faded, it takes energy I don't have much of.
I slept through two therapy appointments. Sleeping pattern has been fucked the past month. This week I didn't sleep through it. I click with my therapist, which apparently is one of the best scientific identifiers of a therapist being effective according to her.
It's hard to know whether it's helping atm, since I assume everyone is feeling brutally lonely rn. Maybe there's just no way for most people to be mentally healthy in a pandemic.
I am really going against my instinct to post this. Right now I'm really closed off, not talking to almost anyone for a while. I don't feel like I have the energy for it. It feels weird talking about this hopefully and publicly without being "fixed". I just know reading things like this on reddit etc. that are so blunt about mental health experiences encouraged me to actually try therapy/meds in the first place + helped with persisting for longer. Statistically, they are worth trying properly.
so what i'm really saying is should i take the meds all in one day to speed up the effect?
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